it just dawned on me (yup, i'm slow) that my words could be taken as criticising others' way of live and choices (especially yours). that is so not the case. I admire and think i understand the choices and motivation for the choices you have made and probably are making. I still (despite the distance of time and geography) view you with immense admiration and goodwill.
Keep living as you are, my love. Accumulate understanding and experiences. i am yours, as i have been.
Sunday, April 29, 2012
Saturday, April 7, 2012
Live Your Dreams...
there is a lot to be said by many successful persons about "living your dreams". that is and has been revealed to be the key to happiness and to success if one desires such.
unfortunately for some of us, our dreams revolve around others.
my life, my perception of a proper life, the things i desire and aspire to, do not lie within myself. in fact i abhor the notion of living for self.
i've been called evil so many times, that i've grown accustomed to the notion; the irony is that my concept of evil is expressed by this: "thinking and acting with only your interests as motivation (ignoring the interests of others)"
don't get me wrong. i do not consider persons that follow or live in pursuit of their dreams as being evil. oh no. i utterly admire such. i envy that way of being. but i keep"discovering" that such a life "cannot" be mine.
each time i've fought for and pursued the things i desire, it has ended in disaster; disaster the likes of which i really do not wish to be a part of. i gain the world but lose my soul. the things desired are achieved, only for me to be left with the feeling that they are empty, devoid of the soul and fulfillment they should bring, the fulfillment i desire.
so i continue as a slave to others, deriving scraps of fulfillment in the successes of others. paying penance for my past evils and awaiting the time when those that can make my dreams real will be ready for it to be so.
unfortunately for some of us, our dreams revolve around others.
my life, my perception of a proper life, the things i desire and aspire to, do not lie within myself. in fact i abhor the notion of living for self.
i've been called evil so many times, that i've grown accustomed to the notion; the irony is that my concept of evil is expressed by this: "thinking and acting with only your interests as motivation (ignoring the interests of others)"
don't get me wrong. i do not consider persons that follow or live in pursuit of their dreams as being evil. oh no. i utterly admire such. i envy that way of being. but i keep"discovering" that such a life "cannot" be mine.
each time i've fought for and pursued the things i desire, it has ended in disaster; disaster the likes of which i really do not wish to be a part of. i gain the world but lose my soul. the things desired are achieved, only for me to be left with the feeling that they are empty, devoid of the soul and fulfillment they should bring, the fulfillment i desire.
so i continue as a slave to others, deriving scraps of fulfillment in the successes of others. paying penance for my past evils and awaiting the time when those that can make my dreams real will be ready for it to be so.
Friday, August 21, 2009
a toe lightly dipped
been tweeting for a while, but sometimes a tweet is not enough. a blog may come in handy eh.
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